I feel like I was doing pretty well at the beginning of the pandemic, but as it continues to stretch out, never-ending, in front of us, my mind feels like it is getting heavier with every day. I am single, without children, so I live alone, and more and more these days I am feeling lonely. Most of my friends don’t want to be exposed to me (I have been vaccinated but I get it), and of course there are very few places to go. Reasons keep popping up to go to Target, Lowes, even the post office (yes, it’s that serious y’all). Here in Michigan, the actual physical greyness of the outside world doesn’t help either.
I am very lucky that I still get to see my nieces and nephews, who are my favorite people in the world. But I still sometimes feel like the depression is trying to suck me back in, whispering all the terrible things until I’m standing at the brink. Even after all these years in the trenches, I don’t always know the best way to fight off the heaviness of it all. I’ve never been good at exercising but I’m trying to get into it more. I try to do more reading instead of watching tv. I’ve even started to cook more (those who know me are probably saying WTF?). Maybe this is why I chose now to start this blog.
I’m sure many others are struggling with this. What do you do to fight back against your depression? Suggestions very welcome.
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